Thursday, August 16, 2012
A Lot Like Me, Only Better.
Bruce has been going to football practice for about 3 weeks now. Though he says he likes it and its fun, and he is getting used to it and all he has to do, he still gets very emotional when he heads down to the field. He is so shy. He has not made and friends yet. He is kind of the odd kid out. Most of the other boys have already played football last year and know each other. He is just not as out going to talk to or make friends with the other kids. So, he walks down alone, and comes back up when he is down, alone.
I feel for him.
My heart breaks for him. I understand how scared, shy and nervous he must be.
He is so much like me in that aspect.
But I am beyond proud of him, because even though he is so much like me, he is still TOUGH and BRAVE. Just like The Daddy. He wants to do his best. To show no fear. So, though he has tears in his eyes, he grabs his gear and walks, head up, determined not to let a single teardrop fall. He walks alone and without hesitation, down to the field to the spot where his team meets. He knows what he has to do, and he does it.
I respect him for that. I am overwhelmed with emotion and pride because of that. That's something I'd NEVER do - or at least never would have done at his age.
I needed someone. Someone with me. A hand to hold. A leader to follow. Someone to make sure I was doing it right. Because even if I KNEW I was doing it right, whatever the situation, I still felt fear I might be doing something the wrong way. I needed and wanted that hand to hold. He, though he wants it, doesn't need the hand to hold. He is a lot more confident than I ever was at his age and even AM now sometimes.
He is a lot like me, only better.
As a parent that makes me so happy. It brings me joy and I say it again PRIDE (I cant say it enough).
Pride in my son, in who he is, and who we are raising him to be.
Shy. Awkward. Loving. Emotional. But also tough, confident and even more so... Brave.
I love this kid. So much. He makes my heart swell, my eyes water, and my lips smile.